Despite my jump back in to the world of running, and my re-dedication to fitness. I have been struggling with getting back on track with my eating. Like mega bad. I can't tell you how many times I have told myself, "Today is the day. I am going to eat clean starting at this moment!" And then I have a giant cheesy filled burrito for lunch. Cleaning eating? Right.
I didn't really take a lot of care to stay on track while I was laid up, and I definitely put on a few. Ok. 8 pounds to be exact. I am 5' 7". So, 8 pounds doesn't really look that bad on me because of my tallness, which is I think what has been the biggest de-motivator. I have been able to eat whatever I have wanted for the past 3 months. Yeah, I've put on some weight, but I don't look horrible as a result of that weight gain. I just look average. Average is alright.
Despite the way I look, I know how I feel, and I don't feel very awesome. I can feel the flabby-ness in my tum, arms, and legs. I definitely wouldn't feel comfortable being in a swim suit in front of anyone. I don't feel very strong.
I've been feeling a lot of stress at work, and when I am stressed I want to eat everything in site. I think I have realized that more than ever this week. I've been thinking a lot more about how food makes me feel. It's comfort. But, honestly, those super awesome gianormous burritos don't do a thing for me. Sure, it comforts my ego and stress level momentarily. But, it doesn't make the stress go away, and it doesn't make me feel better in the long run.
But I HAVE to do SOMETHING when I am stressed. Or else I'll start to pull out my hair. Literally. When I am getting nervous or stressed about something I will play with my hair. I'm a psycho. I know.
I have decided that when I'm feeling that way I need to de-stress in a healthy and positive way. Exercise...Duh.
So, comfort eating, our days are up. Its time to eat because my body needs it, and not because I need to 'feel better' about something. Tah-Tah.
Are you a comfort eater?